Friday, August 31, 2012

Bad Past, Good Future

I was looking at my files. randomly. looking for something. and found something else.

dated 4/11/2011.

A year ago. how come I've forgotten about this?

It was a memory of sorts. conversations and a whole lot more with this person. I was suddenly thankful to have "saved" it and re-read it just now. Everyhing finally came back in an instant. It is of sort my gentle reminder that there was something wrong in the past from the START.

That memory was a past full of pain, a roller coaster of emotion, I was high and came down so low! Everything happened without me noticing that I had changed because I tried to change for someone who I thought was worth the change just because I want things to work out.. But it turns out, I've become a person I no longer knew. I started to doubt myself, became unsure who I was and seen myself so in the bad light, even the moon and stars wouldn't appear. The hardest part to accept was I finally can admit to myself that I was abused. Not the physical one.. But the one that could hurt and change a man- the Emotional one.

It was a quiet, slow process. the one that gets you off guard.. I wasn't even aware then. It was the one that slowly takes your soul out of you and just drained you out. So much hurt, so much pain.

A pain that I tried to hide from and finally, now, willing to let go and start anew.

Emotional baggage is what is left for me and admitting it is the first part. Today, will be the start of my personal healing. To make me a better person, to love myself more, to see I am worth the person who I should be, to feel appreciated for who I am and change for no one but for myself.

My 5 rules to live by from all of this: Learn. Love. Trust. Hope. and find Peace.



I am positive that I'll be back sooner than you think.. Better, bolder and wiser! Good vibes from here on out! :)

XO,
J



Saturday, August 25, 2012

Question and answer portion!

In practice for my upcoming exams, I decided to answer someone's question left at my formspring account..


LOL. So if you have anything else you'd like to ask, just go to the left upper portion of my blog (formspring)! :)

PS: please don't indulge on stupid and rude questions...

Peace and love,
Jamie

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Hong Kong on my mind

Escaped a few days to Hong Kong with the fam last weekend! I just love how accessible Hong Kong is from the Philippines! A plane ride only takes an hour and air tickets are just getting cheaper and cheaper! I've been stressed these past few days and this trip was really something I really looked forward to.. So lemme just share bits and pieces of what I did/saw/ate in HK. :))


  
Arrived in HK

                       
Ate at Crystal Jade at the Airport

Buying our bus tickets!

Bus rides usually takes an hour from the airport to the city! Sleeping cousin and brother!

Stayed at City Garden Hotel , North Point! 

Took the tram from North Point to Causeway Bay (only 2.30 HKD!)


I always am fascinated with this mode of transpo whenever I'm in Hong kong!

ah, the familiar places and so huge crowd!

Went toTime Square,Causeway

Saw this amazing 3-meters tall painted art canvas on painted on stacked books!


saw, a couple of Brit guards walking, 

I guess for the Olympics promotion happening at the Time Square area

did a lot of walking and MTR transfers and commutes! I'm still amazed at their MTR,I swear you can just go anywhere in HK with it and supppppper galing ng system nila!


me, mom and my sister

and my HK trip will never be complete without a visit in my fave shops!! 

COTTON ON!


H and M!!

LOVE! it was on sale when we were there! :)



Only in Hong Kong! 888ml coke!
Only in Hong Kong! Bigger Yakults!

Mrs. Fields! More choices!!

wasabi sauce for my Mcdo Chicken nuggets

Mc Grilled Chicken burger


Iced Mocha and a tea that I can't remember the name of!

Walking at the alleys of HK!


grabbing late dinner at 11 pm!


cute cuff links!

my cute Ipad case!
IKEA's Dark chocolate bar for only (10HKD!) cheap!

a HK aiport must! Popeyes!!

yum!!

I definitely need trips like this again to keep me sane from med school!

till the next post!